We’ve left so many things behind us. We celebrated the death of Earth itself, though we were dead to the world when Sol cooled and bloated and devoured it in a single bite. It wouldn’t have mattered; we were far beyond the light cone by then anyway. But we woke for the next build, and checked the time, and toasted the passing of our homeworld and any who might still be aboard her. And got to work.<\/p>\n
They were right, the dust who sent us out here so long ago. I’ve lost count of the times the gates we built just sat there, dark and lifeless, until they passed from sight. Other times, though, things came out. Sometimes they even looked like people, and occasionally they spoke to us. Once a gate burst open spewing nothing but rads and plasma, as though a nova had erupted on the other side. More than once, things emerged that didn’t look like they could have descended from anything remotely human. They reached after us. Mostly we’ve been able to keep our distance.<\/p>\n
Once we took on a hitchhiker, an immortal from the twenty-eighth century who caught up with us in a ship made of spider silk. Some still remembered us, she said; to some we had achieved the status of myth, by the simple virtue of continued existence. Many of our sister ships — almost all of them — had long since run aground. <\/p>\n
She didn’t come to bed with us. For four thousand years she wandered Eriophora<\/i>‘s endless dark warrens all by herself. Something happened to her during that time. I don’t know what. I think, maybe, something came aboard. She wouldn’t talk about it. It changed her in ways I can’t describe.<\/p>\n
Immortality. She said it was only a phase.<\/p>\n
Sometimes we had to choose between the things we set free and the things that lay in wait. We’re not the only ones to covet the Goldilocks zones, you see. Sometimes we closed on target to find strange and bejeweled gates already humming with unfamiliar energy. Or we found ourselves caught in ancient cross-fire, coasting inexorably towards the automatic holocausts of extinct races who forgot to turn their wars off when they left. Sometimes our only hope was to build a gate in the teeth of that approaching storm, and pray that whatever came out behind us would be willing and able to take on the things up ahead.<\/p>\n
It’s not just dangerous, though; it’s also beautiful. Nebulae lovely enough to break your heart, even as you devour them. Endless expanses of Dyson spheres: tenuous, iridescent things light-minutes across, fragile and indestructible, blown taut as soap bubbles by the faintest stellar winds. They’re alive, you see. They contain multitudes, these vast and intelligent membranes. Every sublime thought takes years to unfold. <\/p>\n
They can be evil fuckers sometimes, though. Full of hate.<\/p>\n
So much we saw. So much we left behind. And then one day, the gate we’d just built stuttered impossibly online before we had booted it<\/i>. That was the last we saw of the Milky Way.<\/p>\n
Back in the old days we needed each other more than the mission did. It only took one of us to deal with the routine builds, but we stuck them out together anyway, hairless primates huddled together against the cold. It didn’t last. We got bored, we got testy. Started sleeping through the other guy’s shift. We still had relationships back then, still fucked and cuddled and held each other against the raging of the night; but then those bonds would break and it was just easier to stay in the grave while the other resurrected, easier to share your waking hours with memories than with flesh and blood. I’ve gone a million years without seeing another pair of human eyes looking back at me. Sometimes people die in your sleep, and the others forget to leave a note. It can take aeons to realize that someone’s gone.<\/p>\n
Now I’m the only one left. Halfway to the edge of the universe, everyone else dead or turned back or — diverted, along paths orthogonal to my own. It’s just me and the chimp, now.<\/p>\n
I can’t even remember their names.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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